At first the waves are relentless, one after the other, knocking you down so hard you don’t know which way is up. When you think you can’t take any more, another wave is already on top of you, smashing your face into the sand so hard that you can’t breathe. Are you dead? You almost Continue reading

As I hit ‘Send’ on my university application, I can’t help but feel really proud of myself. After all, I graduated 20 years ago from college and now, not only am now applying to graduate school programs, I am applying to graduate school programs in The Netherlands, the place we will call our home for Continue reading

It has been a week since my baby was taken out of me. Feelings of guilt, anger, anxiety, and sadness are the norm. However, these emotions are sprinkled with small rays of joy when my daughter gives me a big hug or when my husband caresses my cheek, reminding me that it’s not all bad, Continue reading

As the shower head sprays my face, I can no longer tell which of the falling liquid is water and which are tears. It doesn’t really matter, does it? I slowly move my hand through the steam and turn the dial. The water stops flowing from the shower head, but my tears continue. I reach Continue reading